Buk…

I just love him…. 

BEER

I don’t know how many bottles of beer
I have consumed while waiting for things 
to get better
I dont know how much wine and whisky
and beer
mostly beer
I have consumed after 
splits with women-
waiting for the phone to ring
waiting for the sound of footsteps,
and the phone to ring
waiting for the sounds of footsteps,
and the phone never rings
until much later
and the footsteps never arrive
until much later
when my stomach is coming up
out of my mouth
they arrive as fresh as spring flowers:
“what the hell have you done to yourself?
it will be 3 days before you can fuck me!”

the female is durable
she lives seven and one half years longer
than the male, and she drinks very little beer
because she knows its bad for the figure.

while we are going mad
they are out
dancing and laughing
with horney cowboys.

well, there’s beer
sacks and sacks of empty beer bottles
and when you pick one up
the bottle fall through the wet bottom
of the paper sack 
rolling
clanking
spilling gray wet ash
and stale beer,
or the sacks fall over at 4 a.m.
in the morning
making the only sound in your life.

beer
rivers and seas of beer
the radio singing love songs
as the phone remains silent
and the walls stand
straight up and down
and beer is all there is.

…Charles Bukowski

thinking

I have been doing a lot of thinking about A Music So Subtle lately. I’ve been working on it for so long now it was hard to see straight. I have fought using text and padding it with the stories behind the locations of the images, and even the experience of taking the images. But after a conversation with Paul Cabuts, I’m beginning to change my mind. He said one of the reasons he loved photography is because it is the world’s worst communicator. To drop in a cliche, a light bulb went off. I had been trying to put that sentence into words ever since I started studying photography. I had been rambling about the conflict between the real and fiction a photograph creates. Which wasn’t wrong, it just wasn’t the angle I was really trying to map out for myself.

Also after showing a few Kentucky folks the project, something i was very nervous to do, I have realized those stories are so important. I end up telling them to everybody I’m physically with who is looking at the images, why not fix em so they’re there when I’m not?  So now to put on my writers hat. And put a plan of action into place. 

It would have been helpful if I could have made it to that Patti Smith Sam Shepard reading in dublin after all. They might have learned me a trick or two. Here’s a photo from the missed out evening. My friend Evelina’s selfpenned caption to the image ooh this??? Oh just a bit of light reading….. I left Derrida in the car.